Superbaby..

My 3 months old nephew, Matthew Vincent Hon..

Cheers..

My first 4D ultrasound..

The miracle of life!

Week 13 of my pregnancy..

her length is 7,9 cm, and yet we can see her eyes, hands, legs and all her body details! wow!

Thanks God for this miracle.. And yes we're having a girl!!

It's a girl! Like her daddy wants ;p

cheers..

In memoriam..

Our beloved angel,

Adeline Singgih

It's been 2 years since you left us, but you always live in our heart..

Love you forever,

mommy & daddy

cheers..

My first baby bump!

matthew announcement..

cheers..

First ultrasound..

Are we having twins?? Omg.. Can't wait for the next usg!

cheers..

Finally!!

After 1,5 years of trying, expecting, and hoping.. After peeing so many time on these sticks.. Finally I got positive result!! Meaning: I'm pregnant!!! Yay \(^.^)/

wish me luck!!

My brother graduation's day!

Finally after 4 years study @ shanghai!

cheers..

Growing tomatoes Italian way

An old Italian man lived alone in the country. He wanted to dig his tomato garden but it was very hard work as the ground was hard. His only son, Vincent, who used to help him, was in prison.

The old man wrote a letter to his son and described his predicament:

Dear Vincent,
I am feeling pretty badly because it looks like I won’t be able to plant my tomato garden this year.
I’m just getting too old to be digging up a garden plot. I know if you were here my troubles would be over. I know you would be happy to dig the plot for me.
Love, Dad

A few days later he received a letter from his son:

Dear Dad,
Don’t dig up that garden. That’s where I buried the bodies.
Love, Vinnie

At 4 a.m. the next morning, FBI agents and local police arrived and dug up the entire area without finding any bodies. They apologized to the old man and left.

That same day the old man received another letter from his son:

Dear Dad,
Go ahead and plant the tomatoes now.
That’s the best I could do under the circumstances.
Love you, Vinnie

cheers..

Menjalankan Kehidupan Dengan Benar-Benar Hidup

cerita berikut ini sangat inspiratif.. dikutip dari website Bpk Tanadi Santoso yg terkenal dengan Business Wisdomnya..

Ketika kita masih kecil, kita selalu berharap, "Kalau saja nanti saya SMP/SMA waduh saya bisa naik sepeda/sepeda motor sendiri. Sekolah alangkah nikmatnya." Ketika sudah SMP/SMA kita berpikir, "Kalau aku jadi mahasiswa, pasti keren. Bisa pacaran." Maka kita mengharap dan mengharap dan mengharap jadi mahasiswa.

Ketika kita diterima di universitas, kita senang. Begitu jadi mahasiswa kita berpikir, "Kapan ya kita lulus. Setelah diwisuda aku bisa bekerja." Maka kita terus berpikir seperti itu. Terus mengharapkan wisuda.

Setelah lulus kuliah diterima bekerja. "Asyik, sekarang aku masuk di perusahaan besar. Kapan ya saya bisa jadi direktur ?" Dalam perjalanan kerja, dia menikah dan lalu menjadi direktur. Dan setelah jadi direktur berharap, "Sekarang aku sudah jadi direktur, kapan ya anakku sudah bisa sekolah ?" Dan ketika anaknya sudah sekolah kita berharap, "Anakku sudah sekolah, kapan ya anakku bisa bekerja dan kawin."

Tanpa terasa waktu berjalan. Tiba-tiba kita sudah sampai pada ujung kehidupan. Kita sudah menjadi tua renta dan pensiun. Dan kita tiba-tiba sadar, karena kita belum pernah benar-benar hidup.

Dalam kehidupan kita, ada kata hidup dalam kata kehidupan itu. Maka kita sebenarnya bukan berkeinginan untuk mencapai titik ujung kehidupan. Karena di titik ujung yang paling sana adalah kuburan. Sedang di titik ujung sebelah sini adalah kelahiran. Dari saat kita lahir sampai kita meninggal ada kehidupan.

Kata kunci untuk kehidupan adalah menjadi hidup. Kita hidup maka kita merasakan saat ini. Kita menikmati menjadi seorang mahasiswa. Kita menikmati menjadi seorang karyawan, seorang ayah dan lainnya. Kita menikmati kehidupan hari-hari ini. Kita tidak pernah mengharapkan, "Besok saya ujian, lulus, jadi kerja, menikah, punya anak dan kaya raya." Tidak. Tapi kita menjalani kehidupan yang sudah ada dengan benar-benar hidup.

-- cheers..

Everything happens for a reason..

We often hear this phrase "Everything happens for a reason". Does it always true? me myself believe that everything happens for a reason.. for a higher purpose. I believe that everything contains a gift or a lesson, though I may not always be able to see it in the moment, but i'm sure that one day when i found out the reason then i'll be very grateful of what happened in the past and probably regret why did i complain, blaming and feel guilty so much that time..

Recently, I did some job hunting and found one job that challange me, that attract me. It was a math tutor but this math academy has a unique way of teaching math to children. I am so interested, i thought maybe i could use some changes in my careers, or maybe i could be a great teacher since i love children, or maybe there's a piece missing in my life because of my loss recently so i thought maybe this job will fullfil me or something.

First i was hesitated, what if i couldn't be a good teacher? and many other what if.. so i didn't apply for that job.. then few days later i still saw that job advertising... and the week after that... and even the week after the long lebaran holiday.. then i began to think what if this is the right job for me? what if this is meant to be? so i applied for that job, and i got a call for interview..

Then i met this lovely lady, Widya, she was the one who interviewed me, i dont know why but i feel like i already like her. We had a small talk, but unfortunately the salary didn't suit me. So i have to let it go, eventhough i really like the job. A few days later, I got a call from her again, it was a surprise, we met and we talked. She offer me a freelance job, and gave me the sample. It was nice talking to her, she's nice and stuff. Then she recomend me to read "Happy for No Reason - 7 Steps to being happy from the inside out by Marci Shimoff & Carol Kline". I was very attracted to the book after i read the title (eventhough i haven't see the book). I went to the bookstore the next day and bought the book straight away and start reading..

I found this book very inspiring, and i believe that i can be happy for no reason.. i want to be happy for no reason.. i began to think about all my past experiences, all my bad habbits with fullon complaining, blaming and feel guilty.. i just want to be happy! So far I've learned that to be happy we have to be less complaining, less blaming, focus on the solutions, make peace with yourself, and be more grateful for everything u have.

It was very worth it reading this book.. so probably you should read it too.. i recomend this book.. probably after i read this book and practicing the theories to my life, i can be happy, all that mental block that block my happiness will go away..

Anyway, I submit the samples, hoping that it'll suit the academy, then few days later, she called me and they accept my sample, it was really surprising seeing that i didn't think it was good enough, so I met her again today, we had talk, i feel like we are very similar in someway, i feel like i knew her for years already.. and she said that probably we met for a reason.. who knows? then it hit me.. yeah probably i met her for a reason.. maybe i can finally make inner peace of myself.. maybe i can be a better person.. maybe i can be happy from the inside out! who knows, right?

I don't really know what exactly is the reason for all of this yet, but from what i know so far, i got a good friend that i can talk to, and also i found this really amazing book that could change my life. Hope it could change your life too when u read it :)

cheers...

WIFE VS. HUSBAND

WIFE VS. HUSBAND
A couple drove down a country road for several miles, not saying a word.An earlier discussion had led to an argument andneither of them wanted to concede their position.As they passed a barnyard of mules, goats, and pigs,the husband asked sarcastically, 'Relatives of yours?''Yep,' the wife replied, 'in-laws.'

W O R D S
A husband read an article to his wife about how many words women use a day...30,000 to a man's 15,000.The wife replied, 'The reason has to be because we have to repeat everything to men...The husband then turned to his wife and asked, 'What?'

CREATION
A man said to his wife one day, 'I don't know how you can beso stupid and so beautiful all at the same time.' The wife responded, 'Allow me to explain.God made me beautiful so you would be attracted to me;God made me stupid so I would be attracted to you!

WHO DOES WHAT
A man and his wife were having an argument about whoshould brew the coffee each morning.The wife said, 'You should do it, because you get up first,and then we don't have to wait as long to get our coffee.'The husband said, ' You are in charge of cooking around here andyou should do it, because that is your job, and I can just wait for my coffee.'Wife replies, 'No, you should do it, and besides, it is in the Biblethat the man should do the coffee.'Husband replies, 'I can't believe that, show me.'So she fetched the Bible, and opened the New Testamentand showed him at the top of several pages, that it indeed says........ .'HEBREWS'

The Silent Treatment
A man and his wife were having some problems at home and were giving eachother the silent treatment. Suddenly, the man realized that the next day,he would need his wife to wake him at 5:00 AM for an early morning business flight..Not wanting to be the first to break the silence (and LOSE), he wrote on a piece of paper,'Please wake me at 5:00 AM.' He left it where he knew she would find it.The next morning, the man woke up, only to discover it was 9:00 AMand he had missed his flight. Furious, he was about to go andsee why his wife hadn't wakened him, when he noticed a piece of paper bythe bed. The paper said, 'It is 5:00 AM. Wake up.'Men are not equipped for this kind of contest.

moral of the story: God may have created man before woman, but there is always a rough draft before the masterpiece.

cheers...

Apa kata dunia?

Apa kata dunia bila melihat sisa-sisa sampah hotel dan restaurant yang banyak baketerinya di daur ulang dgn cara di formalin, diberi pewarna dan digoreng lalu dijual di pasar?

Apa kata dunia bila melihat daging-daging gelondongan yg di suntik dengan air supaya keliatan lebih berat dan lebih gemuk?

Apa kata dunia bila melihat sapi yang sudah mati lalu dipotong2 lalu dijual ke pasar tanpa memikirkan bakteri-bakteri yang mungkin bisa berakibat fatal bila orang mengkonsumsinya?

Apa kata dunia bila melihat ayam jg disuntik dengan air supaya lebih gemuk atau melihat ayam-ayam yang sudah telah menjadi bangkai, keluar belatungnya dan penuh dengan lalat tapi masih dijual?

Apa kata dunia bila melihat tahu yang diformalin lalu dikonsumsi oleh manusia?

Apa kata dunia bila melihat pedagang gorengan memasukkan plastik ke dalam minyaknya sebelum menggoreng tahu/tempe/singkong supaya gurih terus sepanjang hari tanpa memikirkan dampak efek samping kimianya bila dikonsumsi?

Apa kata dunia bila melihat makanan yang telah kadarluarsa dihancurkan kecil-kecil lalu dibuat makanan baru dan dipasarkan untuk dikonsumsi anak kecil?

Apa kata dunia bila melihat makanan yang telah kadarluarsa masih dijual di pasaran dengan harga yang murah?

Apa kata dunia bila mereka tahu semua ini tapi tetap membelinya tanpa memikirkan efek samping yang akan mereka dapatkan bila mengkonsumsinya, karena mereka tak mampu untuk membeli makanan yang masih layak dimakan?

siapakah yg bertanggung jawab atas semua ini? apakah hati nurani orang sudah terlalu dikonsumsi untuk kepentingan pribadi semata? atau hidup di indonesia begitu susah sampai orang tega menjual dan membeli makanan seperti itu demi bertahan hidup? demi sesuap nasi untuk keluarganya?

hmm.... semua ini membuat kita berpikir betapa beruntungnya kita dan betapa kita harus bersyukur atas apa yang kita miliki sekarang sehingga kita tak perlu mengkonsumsi makanan-makanan tersebut.. bersyukur karena kita masih mampu untuk makan makanan yang layak.. seberapa susahnya kita, kita masih jauh lebih beruntung daripada mereka... so live your life gracefully everyday!

cheers..

Same mistake - James blunt

I've been listening to this song over and over again.. love it.. (and so many thanks to Mr. E!) here are the lyrics..

Saw the world turning in my sheets and once again I cannot sleep.
Walk out the door and up the street; look at the stars beneath my feet.
Remember rights that I did wrong, so here I go.
Hello, hello.

There is no place I cannot go.
My mind is muddy but my heart is heavy.
Does it show?
I lose the track that loses me, so here I go.

And so I sent some men to fight, and one came back at dead of night.
Said he'd seen my enemy.
Said he looked just like me,
So I set out to cut myself and here I go.

Ref. I'm not calling for a second chance,I'm screaming at the top of my voice.
Give me reason but don't give me choice.
'Cause I'll just make the same mistake again.

And maybe someday we will meet, and maybe talk and not just speak.
Don't buy the promises 'cause, there are no promises I keep.
And my reflection troubles me, so here I go.

Ref.

Saw the world turning in my sheets and once again I cannot sleep.
Walk out the door and up the street; look at the stars.
Look at the stars fall down.And wonder where did I go wrong.

cheers..

Quote of the day

"A couple of hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. Never leave that till tomorrow, he said, which you can do today. This is the man who discovered electricity. You think more people would listen to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying. "

- Meredith Grey

A Small Story..

A blind boy sat on the steps of a building with a hat by his feet. He held up a sign which said: "I am blind, please help." There were only a few coins in the hat.
A man was walking by. He took a few coins from his pocket and dropped them into the hat. He then took the sign, turned it around, and wrote some words. He put the sign back so that everyone who walked by would see the new words.

Soon the hat began to fill up. A lot more people were giving money to the blind boy. That afternoon the man who had changed the sign came to see how things were. The boy recognized his footsteps and asked, "Were you the one who changed my sign this morning? What did you write?"

The man said, "I only wrote the truth. I said what you said but in a different way." What he had written was: "Today is a beautiful day and I cannot see it."

Do you think the first sign and the second sign were saying the same thing?

Of course both signs told people the boy was blind. But the first sign simply said the boy was blind. The second sign told people they were so lucky that they were not blind. Should we be surprised that the second sign was more effective?

Moral of the Story: Be thankful for what you have. Be creative. Be innovative. Think differently and positively.

Invite others towards good with wisdom. Live life with no excuse and love with no regrets. When life gives you a 100 reasons to cry, show life that you have 1000 reasons to smile. Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear. Keep the faith and drop the fear.

Great men say, "Life has to be an incessant process of repair and reconstruction, of discarding evil and developing goodness…. In the journey of life, if you want to travel without fear, you must have the ticket of a good conscience."

The most beautiful thing is to see a person smiling… And even more beautiful is, knowing that you are the reason behind it!!!

- cheers..

Love Letter from the sea..

Our little angel in heaven, adeline,

you have no idea how wonderful & beautiful your mother is (outside & inside). but you could feel her in you. that's why you're in heaven now. you're chosen to be there to represent your parents love to God. wish you get use to your wings now....fly...fly...fly...in our hearts forever.

Love,
Aunty Fanny

Love Letter from heaven..

Dear Mommy,

I just wanted to let you know that I made it home. The journey wasn't an easy one, but it didn't take too long. Everything is so pretty here, so white, so fresh and new. I wish that you could close your eyes and that you could see it too.

Please try not to be sad for me... Try to understand. God is taking care of me... I'm in the shelter of His hands. Here there is no sadness, no sorrow, and no pain. Here there is no crying, and I'll never hurt again.

Here it is so peaceful when all the angels sing, I really have to go now-I've just got to try my wings!

Love,
Your Little Angel Adeline

Takdir itu kejam..?

Film yg lagunya berlirik "takdir memang kejam..." kembali menguak pikiranku akhir2 ini, apa benar takdir itu kejam?

Tanggal 1 Mei 2008 kemarin, tepat pada hari kenaikan Yesus Kristus ke surga, aku kehilangan satu-satunya buah hatiku, putriku yg cantik, Adeline Singgih. Kejadian ini benar-benar seperti mimpi, terjadi begitu cepat membuatku shock dan tidak percaya.

Banyak orang termasuk suami, orang tua, saudara2, dan teman2 yang memberi support padaku, menemaniku di rumah sakit. Telpon tak henti2nya berbunyi dari kerabat2 yang ingin mengucapkan belasungkawa dan dukungan. Hal ini membuatku semakin sedih dan teriris, karena menyadarkanku bahwa ini semua bukanlah mimpi semata melainkan kenyataan yg harus aku hadapi.

Kehilangan seseorang yg pernah tumbuh berkembang dalam rahimku begitu lama sangatlah menyedihkan, semua terasa hampa, tendangan-tendangan kecil itu sudah tidak ada lagi. Bila sebelumnya masih tidak percaya bahwa ada seseorang yg sedang hidup di diriku, masih tidak yakin akan bisa tidaknya menjadi ibu yg baik, dan masih ada sedikit keinginan untuk bersenang2 mengingat menjadi seorang ibu menjadi tidak bebas, sekarang dengan kehilangan ini membuatku ingin menjadi ibu, dan membuatku tak ingin apapun lagi kecuali Adelineku.

Beberapa hari yang lalu, ada berita bahwa ada orang yang menemukan seorang bayi di tempat pembuangan sampah di Bali. Mengapa orang tuanya begitu kejam? Mengapa mrk tega membuang darah dagingnya di tempat sampah sampai kepala dan tangan nya dicabik2 oleh anjing? Apa yang bayi itu perbuat sehingga mereka tidak menginginkannya? Apa dosa bayi itu? Bukankah dia berhak untuk hidup? Pertanyaan2 ini mengiang2 di kepalaku. Bukankah takdir itu kejam?

Mungkin bila dilihat dari apa yg terjadi pdku, dan dunia akhir2 ini orang bilang takdir itu kejam, namun aku percaya bahwa takdir itu bukan kejam, tetapi takdir itu membuat kita lebih tegar dalam menghadapi hidup di dunia ini, takdir membuat kita lebih menghargai hidup, takdir membuat kita menysukuri apa yang kita miliki, dan takdir membawa kita untuk lebih dekat dengan Tuhan.

Pastor yang mendoakan Adeline pernah berkata, bahwa ini sudah rencana Tuhan membawa Adeline tepat pada hari kenaikan Yesus Kristus ke surga, sehingga Adeline diangkat bersama-sama denganNya dan dijadikan malaikat kecilNya. Karena bayi yang meninggal didalam rahim masih suci dan akan menjadi malaikat kecil yang akan selalu mendoakan keluarganya.

Kehilangan Adeline benar2 pengalaman yang membentuk hidupku, dan aku merasa ada bagian dari diriku yang telah mati bersamanya, membuatku bertekad untuk menjadi orang yang lebih baik. Meskipun aku belum pernah menggendongnya, tapi aku bersyukur telah 8bulan "menggendongnya" didalam rahimku, bersyukur telah merasakan tendangan2 kecilnya dan bersyukur telah memilikinya meski dalam waktu yang singkat.

Sekarang, Adelineku sudah menjadi malaikat kecil di surga, yang dipangku oleh Yesus, mendoakan orang tuanya dari atas sana, dan kelak akan menjaga adik-adiknya. Aku menjadi lega karena Adeline sudah menemukan kebahagiaan sejati, dan tinggal menunggu waktu untuk berkumpul bersama papa mamanya.

Pengalaman pahit ini membuatku sadar bahwa banyak orang yg begitu mencintaiku, memperhatikanku. Mama Papaku yang begitu peduli dan perhatian, suamiku yang begitu menjagaku dan menghiburku, serta kakak dan adikku yang menguatkanku, saudara2 dan teman2 yang selalu ada disisiku ketika aku membutuhkan mereka. Meskipun aku tahu merekapun ikut sedih atas kematian Adeline, Papa Mama yang sudah tidak sabar untuk menggendong cucu pertamanya, Suamiku yang sangat tidak sabar untuk bertemu dgn putri pertamanya, dan kakak adik dan saudara2 lainnya yang tidak sabar untuk melihat keponakannya, tapi mereka menyembunyikannya, malah menghiburku dan tersenyum didepanku meskipun di dalam hatinya menangis, semua ini mereka lakukan untuk membuatku tegar, dan kuat. Hal ini membuatku terenyuh dan bertekad untuk menghadapi hidup ini dengan berpikiran positive dan mengambil hikmah atas kejadian2 di hidup ini.

Aku percaya Tuhan pasti punya rencana atas apa yang terjadi di hidup ini, dan aku tahu pasti, semua kan jadi indah pada waktunya.

What Makes a Mother?

I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked "What makes a Mother?"
And I know I heard Him say.

"A Mother has a baby"
This we know is true
"But God can you be a Mother,
When your baby's not with you?"

"Yes, you can,"
He replied With confidence in His voice
"I give many women babies,
When they leave is not their choice.

Some I send for a lifetime,
And others for the day.
And some I send to feel your womb,
But there's no need to stay."

"I just don't understand this God
I want my baby to be here."
He took a deep breath and cleared His throat,
And then I saw the tear.

"I wish I could show you,
What your child is doing today.
If you could see your child's smile,
With all the other children and say...

'We go to Earth to learn our lessons,
Of love and life and fear.
My Mommy loved me oh so much,
I got to come straight here.

I feel so lucky to have a Mom,
Who had so much love for me.
I learned my lessons very quickly,
My Mommy set me free.

I miss my Mommy so much,
But I visit her every day.
When she goes to sleep,
On her pillow's where I lay

I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek,
And whisper in her ear.
Mommy don't be sad today,
I'm your baby and I'm here.'

"So you see my dear sweet ones,
your children are okay.
Your babies are born here in My home,
And this is where they'll stay.

They'll wait for you with Me,
Until your lesson's through.
And on the day that you come home
they'll be at the gates for you.

So now you see what makes a Mother,
It's the feeling in your heart
it's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start

Though some on earth may not realize, you are a Mother.
Until their time is done.
They'll be up here with Me one day
and know that you are the best one!"

- author unknown